I once wanted to be a writer!

I'm a dreamer through and through. I want the green grass every time. Just maybe that's wanting to much. I know the limitations of being human. People want and have to power over others. I'm not sure that I'm any different, but so far that doesn't apply to me.

I think that what people should hold more significance. When people say mean and degrading things, no matter if it is a joke, there should be a punishment. If people do something nice, whether intentional or not, they should be rewarded.

Kids should learn more about other cultures, but that other cultures are wrong, just they have different views and different ways.

The reason I wanted to be writer is because I once thought that what I felt, said, thought, believe, dream, wanted, needed, desired, or had an opinion about matter to more than just me. It's not that I think I'm wrong about that. Some people do care, bit only for moment and what I've screamed about no longer matters. There is always something bigger for them.

My brother is in Iraq. I believe I written that before. He went McIntosh College for a Criminal Law degree. He wanted to transfer to the University of New Hampshire. None of his credits were 'transferable'. Now he's a marine. I'm not what he's fighting for anymore. People don't care that these boys are over there, fighting for our freedom. For right to complain about the gas prices.

I once that everyone had to care. That everyone lived there life the best they knew how. I used to think that people weren't just out for themselves. I was wrong about that. The heart of America is dead. Boys don't don't take off there hats anymore, no even for the national anthem. Women can't have the great and the happy husband and family(or whatever their preference). Something always has to be given up.

People around are just settling for whatever they can get. They're not even trying for something a little more. Being happy has turned into 'making ends meet'. People want to much of the unnecessary. I wonder if my wants are just as unnecessary? That's why I don't want to be a writer anymore. Words are just words. Who'll take action over what I have to say? How wants to listen a women saying "I know a better way that works for everyone". If they listen then they wont have anything to fix later. They wont have anything to be notarized for because they've already made the right decision.

People make choices that have false bottoms so that they can pretend "I didn't know that would happen" and then they can 'fix it as best as possible' only not to the 100% that they're capable of. My theroy is do right and move on to the next problem. I'm iddles according to some people. To me I just want people to stop sucking the life out everything and instead I want them to be putting life into everything.

I make everything to complicated, says my mother. She's the one that said there's no money in being a writer. For me the money doesn't matter, however she did make another point. If my own mother wont listen my dreams then why would anyone else care.